"I have symptoms that I think may be multiple sclerosis"
I have been recently having several problems including aching and soreness in my upper body and left leg. Last year I had problems with weakness and cramping in my hands of which I was tested for carpul tunnel and it was negative. I have also been moody and very clumsy lately. And very tired. I have done reasearch into all of this and am beginging to wonder if I may have multiple sclerosis considering the fact that my hands got better for a while and then got worse again after a year or so. Should I bring this up to my doctor? Thank you for your time and information.
Hi - I think that it's always a good idea to get checked out physically if one has symptoms showing up. I also get for you that this is something on the mental level. It would be good for you to do a shamanic journey and ask your power animal about what is causing these symptoms in your body. Here's how you do a power animal journey:
You will need a tapeplayer and a tape of drumming that is especially made for shamanic journeys. This can be ordered from The Foundation for Shamanic Studies. You ought to be able to locate them on the internet. the tape ought to be at least an hour long. If it isn't, re-copy it twice onto another tape to make it longer. When it is time to return from your journey, the drmming will speed up, so only have that speeded up part re-copied at the very end of the tape. If it is still light outside when you do this journey, you may want to put a cloth over your eyes to make it darker. Also, some people like to use headsets to listen to the drumming.
Get comfortable in a quiet place where you won't be disturbed for at least 40 minutes. Light a candle, and then do some slow, deep breathing to fully relax. As with doing any sacred ceremony, you may want to set up a protection around yourself and state an intention that only that energy which is your true Spirit of Unconditional Love and Life Force energy be with you and given to you. It would be good also to set up a cocoon of white light around yourself before you begin which puts this in place also. You can ask for guidance and protection from Great Spirit, the Creator, God, etc. That way you are very clear what your intention is and what you will only allow into your space. Lighting white candles is a good idea as they represent light and purity.
When you are fully relaxed, imagine that you are walking along a path that leads to a special place that you have actually seen before, a place that leads into the earth. This can be a cave, a hole in the ground, a hole in a tree, a rock overhang, etc. As you imagine walking along this path, use your imaginary senses to really be there - smell the air, feel the ground underneath your feet, notice the colors and sounds around you, feel the air against your skin. Take it all in. When you get to that place which leads into the earth, which is for you alone and no one else, enter into it, again using all your senses to explore the area for a bit. Feel if the walls are smooth or rough, wet or dry - if the air is cooler, etc.
Then, you will notice that there is a long tunnel leading down into the earth from this entranceway. Follow it down deeper and deeper into the earth. Allow the journey to take you as it will. Release any need to control it. Let happens what happens and just stay present with the experience. While you follow this tunnel deeper into the earth, hold in your mind and heart the intention that this journey is for you to connect to your power animal, your medicine ally. That is what you are there for. Eventually, you will notice that the tunnel ends at another entranceway. This entranceway leads you into the world of the Animal Spirits. This world is consists only of a world of nature. Natural landscapes are everywhere. There are animals everywhere - in the trees, grasses, by the rivers, on the mountains, etc. Notice what it looks like, what the landscape is like where you have arrived into this world. Leave the tunnel and begin to walk out into this world. Again, use all your senses as you explore this world. Notice what time of day or night it is, what's around you, the sounds and colors, the smells, the feeling of the air against your skin, how the earth feels under your feet, etc. Walk in this world taking it all in, holding your intention to meet your medicine ally, until an animal approaches you. When it does, ask it if it is your power animal. If it says yes, you may then journey on with it, learning about it, sharing with it, bonding with it, and asking for any help or guidance or answers you may need. If it says no, it is not your ally, continue walking until you meet the right one. When it is time to leave this spirit world, ask your power animal for a gift, and give it a gift in return. Ask how you can call upon it when you need to, and ask also if you need to keep what it is and what it shares with you private. When it is time to go, say goodbye, and thank you. Then, return to the tunnel and walk back up out of the passageway until you return to the entrance where you entered into the earth. Walk back along your path, and return to the room where you are visioning from. Take some time to fully come back into your body, bringing ALL of yourself back, filling up all of your body with yourself, all the way to finger tips and toes and eyelashes. If you choose to, you can write in a journal about what you learned and what guidance you were given. Take some time to integrate this experience. Don't go out into the world too fast or try to do too much afterwards. Drink water, and Remember to blow out the candles!
Also, these problems seem to have to do with 3rd charka issues - specifically ethics and honor in relationships. I suggest you read Anatomy of the Spirit by Caroline Myss, and check out the info on the 3rd and 4th chakras in detail. Your relationships with the outer world seem to be out of balance. The emerald green aura-soma pomander for finding your own space would be good for you to use for a while. I hope that you will order it and use it. Also, the Lady Portia aura-soma quintessence for not judging and for bringing in mercy and compassion and restoring balance would be very good for you. Issues of unreciprocated affection need to be dealt with - use the core belief formula for transforming false beliefs found in the Laws of the Universe.
Saying this intention would be useful for you also:
Is there some group that you are a part of that does some kind of reading? I'm getting that if so, it would be important for you to let go of it. You have some allergic reaction against something or someone connected to that.